Hey Guys! The big news in my life right now: I just finished my college applications! Yay! Throughout the process, I realized that a lot of the questions I got were about growing up in your environment and who I want to be as an adult.
Growing up in Marin has been amazing. I am so lucky to live in a place as wonderful as Mill Valley, with all the scenic hiking trails, cozy neighborhoods, and an unbelievably supportive community. But, with all these amazing opportunities and pleasures, I’ve had a lot of expectations from not only my family but myself. It seems like everyone around me has a 4.0 GPA, is on a varsity sports team, has a part time job and can probably play an instrument while singing in another language. Which is why I feel I need to hold myself to those same standards so I don’t fall behind.
College applications are a huge part of the fall semester during senior year. It’s exhausting, time consuming and everyone is totally stressed out. I want my applications to be perfect, and showcase who I am. However, I don’t exactly know who “Sabrina” is yet. But — isn’t the point of college to figure out who you are? How am I supposed to say “I don't know exactly who I am yet, but I will someday” without sounding like a total cliché?! The girl I am now might not be the same girl a year from now.
I wish there was a 100% correct way to fill out these applications. A scantron multiple choice test would be awesome. But I also understand that each college is trying to find students that will best fit their campus and environment. I know where I want to go, but worry that If I don’t get in, I will be crushed. I’ve heard a million times “there are so many colleges that are great and could fit you!” and while I know I will make the best out of any college I end up at, I have my heart set on a place.
Now that college apps are done, I just want the pressure to lighten up a bit. I feel like this year I have spent so much time stressing out about my future, I haven't been “living in the moment”. It’s not that I can’t handle pressure, I just don’t want to remember my senior year by feeling stressed about everything. Plus, I’m still enjoying what years I have left being a “child”.
Anyway, I’m excited to hear back from college, and I know that wherever I end up going, it is going to be the right place for me. In the meantime, I'm going to be with my friends and family and making more memories until I leave. 🙂